HAHAHA:')

heloo.......................
hahahahhahahahah :'(
this is it
everything back the feeling come back :')
everything so real i feel that the pain come again for a thousand time
i just can't ignore that i love him
because i am so in love
i want that come back again
but it can't.......
him finally get the women can take care him more than me:(
how suck to know that
how hurts to know that
i just want him nobody else 
i can't love nobody else now accept him.....
maybe i can but it must be a long time
but everything must be go on
so should i decide to getting hurt all over again
i just can see u happy without me
u show the sweet  love from u to her no to me
sometimes i just tired to all of this</3
but is the way i am feeling i just can't deny that

 

everything in that picture shows what i feel right now because of u

CRS'12

kiwkiwkiwkiwkiw gue ngga nyangka udah lulus dr SMP ngga nyangka 3 tahun kerasa cepet bgt-_-
semua hal tentang croseiro'12 menurut gue amazing mulai dr gue kelas 7 yg belom tau apa yg namanya true friends belom tau apa itu nama angkatan,gasuka sama geng2an nya devi dkk wkwkwkkwkw gue jg gatau ternyata kaka kelas hrs di turutin gaada yg gue tau wkwkwkwkkw bol bgt gue trus beranjak ke kls 8 ternyata kelas 8 sangat teramat lebih bol dr yg gue kira dimana gue jd ngerti apa yg seharusnya gue ketahui sampe yg ngge perlu gue ketahui-_- ngertilah hal2 terselubung wkwkwkwkwkkwkwk tp dr kelas 8 itu menurut gue start dr semua yg gue hadapi proses pendewasaan proses semuanya deh wkwkwkwkw yg jelas apaun yg gue lakukan cmn buat gue belajar wkwkwkwk masuk lg gue ke kelas 9 ini dia tahap ke bolbolbolan nyee gue belajar banyak hal di tahun ini  dimana gue ngatain orang gatau batasnya,slekan sama sahabat,memahami segala masalah,kuat nge hadapi ke hidupan,selalu mengucap syukur tp di tahun ini juga gue ngga bisa nge kontrol emosi gue jaman2nya labil yekan tapi gue berusaha mengontrol segalanya tp kalo ngga kuat gue kontrol dan ngga mau ngambil tindakan seenaknya gue malah nge ancurin diri gue wkwkkwkw sampe tindakan terselubung gue lakukan wkwkwkwitu mengenai gue selama 3 tahun belom lg mengenai gue dan tindakan gue sama seluruh anak croseiro wkwwkkwk bol banget nih yee gue sebutin

KELAS 7 :
1.temennan sama ilham,shalna,bella,ijo,yanbo<3
2.becanda begajulan sama ilham<3
3.nyari masalah mulu-_-
4.tingkah ngga jelas
5.ngga ngerti apa2an-_-

KELAS 8 :
1.temenan sama anak2 XNVRLOST
2.MASUK DEH XNVRLOST
3.XNVRLOST BUBAR gue jg gatau knp asal ikut
4.gue nemenin mereka2 semua saat labil
5.mengetahui hal2 terselubung
6.ngerti yg namanya sahabat
7.PULANG MALEM
8.sering berbohong
9.kasus dimana2-_-
10.slek2an yekan
11.PDS terbentuk

KELAS 9 :
1.slekan yg sangat parah-_-
2.temenan mencar
3.PDS bubar
4.labil
5.suka sama orang -_-
6.grow up
7.makin2 deh-_-


wkkwkwkwkwkwkwkwk ini semua sebagian besar perjalannan 3 tahun yg gue lewatin di 77jhs
ini juga salah satu reason gue kenapa bakal kgn sama 77 terutaman anak2 PDS,DEMPAK,SEMPAK,7E
gue sayang sama lo semua semoga solit terus yaaaaaa i love u guysss :*

nothing

Am I better off dead, am I better off a quitter
They say I’m better off now, than I ever was with her
As they take me to my local down the street
I’m smiling but I’m dying trying not to drag my feet

They say a few drinks will help me to forget her
But after one too many I know that I’m never
Only they can see where this is gonna end
They all think I’m crazy but to me it’s perfect sense

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred (?)
Dial her number and confess to her
I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing
(Nothing, nothing …)

So I stumble there, along the railings and the fences
I know if I’m face to face that she’ll come to her senses
Every drunk step I take leads me to her door
If she sees how much I’m hurting
She’ll take me back for sure

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred (?)
Dial her number and confess to her
I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing
(Nothing, nothing …)
She said nothing (nothing nothing)
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Oh I got nothing (nothing nothing)
I got nothing (nothing nothing)
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing

Bridge
Oh sometimes love is intoxicating
Oh you’re coming down your hands are shaking
When you realize there’s no one waiting

Am I better off dead
Am I better off a quitter
They say I’m better off now
Than I ever was with her

And my mates are all there trying to calm me down
Cause I’m shouting your name all over town
I’m swearing if I go there now
I can change your mind turn it all around
And I know that I’m drunk but I’ll say the words
And she’ll listen this time even though they’re slurred (?)
Dial her number and confess to her
I’m still in love but all I heard was nothing
(Nothing, nothing …)
)She said nothing (Nothing, nothing …
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing …)
I got nothing (Nothing, nothing …)
Oh I wanted words but all I heard was nothing
Oh I got nothing (Nothing, nothing …)
I got nothing, I got nothing

this is how i feel

this first my feel so random

you came and make be better

and make everything clear

make my life more wonderful 

you deny your promise make me go down again

your gone and make me so down

your found the new girl everything so blankkk 

and eveything back to random and make me so stress because your gone and forget me so easy...

AND THAT'S MY FEELING RIGHT NOW!!

runaway

Ooohhhhhh

So easy to forget our love, the little things we do.
Like callin' for no reason, just to say the words, "Baby, I love you."
I know lately I've been busy, but a second doesn't go by without you crossin' my mind.
It's been so long since we had time, let's take a day and make everything alright.
Just take my hand, fall in love with me again.

Let's runaway to the place where love first found us.
Let's runaway for the day, don't need anyone around us.
When everything in love gets so complicated, it only takes a day to change it.
What I have to say can't wait, all I need is a day,
so let's runaway.
let's runaway, just for the day.
runaway
runaway

Girl, you've been so patient, spendin' nights alone and not complainin'
But i'll make it up to you and i promise today i won't keep you waitin'.
Please give me this one chance to remind you of everything we have.
I won't give up, I'm too much in love, and I want you to know that.
Just take my hand, fall in love with me again.

Let's runaway to the place where love first found us.
Let's runaway for the day, don't need anyone around us.
When everything in love gets so complicated, it only takes a day to change it.
What i have to say can't wait, all i need is a day.

so let's runaway for the day,
and i'll give everything in this moment.
and i promise to make everyday just like the day[or today?]

Let's runaway to the place where love first found us .
Let's runaway for the day, don't need anyone around us.
When everything in love gets so complicated, it only takes a day to change it.
What i have to say can't wait, all i need is a day,
so let's runaway.

Letters to dad :')

Dear dad,

Hello dad :) how are you?
you know dad i love you so much :')
you know dad i miss you more than anything.....
you know dad i really need you </3
dad you know how jealous i am look my friend family...
you know dad i'm hurts....
oh that i'll really miss you
dad i want feel the love from you...
i want that so much dad
i will do anything to make you came back
i will do that....
just please dad came back i need you....
you know every time i remember you it's just killing me
every time i see my friend's photo family it's so make me down
every time i remember you not here with me i always crying
every time i know you happy with them i was lost
i always asking God why should you go?
i just want you to know the doors are open for you.....
just please came back
:'( please dad i'm tired...
HAHAAHAHHA i miss you so damn much :'(
your the best dad i know that....
so came back home dad we love you,we miss you :')
just please back okeeyyy
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DAD :'(

mami....

Mami itu adalah orang yg sabar yg mau nyaranin seby terus walaupun kadang2 cuman buat mami capek
Mami itu adalah malaikat yg dikirim dari surga buat seby
Mami adalah super hero
Mami adalah orang yg tegar yg pernah ada
Mami adalah orang yg pantang menyerah
Mami adalah orang paling setia yg pernah ada di dunia ini
Mami adalah sesuatu yg tak dapat tergantikan oleh apapun
dan mami adalah anugrah terindah yg pernah ada dalam hidup seby
Mami orang terbijak
Mami adalah seorang penyayang
Mami adalah seorang pemaaf




YANG JELAS MAMI ITU ADALAH ORANG TER THE BEST YG PERNAH SEBY PUNYA MAMI ADALAH ANGEL FROM HEAVEN TO ME.....
MAMI ORANG TERINDAH YG PERNAH ADA
YANG JELAS I LOVE YOU SO MUCH MOM :*{}{}
BE PATIENT MOM I KNOW YOU CAN :D
INITINYA EMAK GUE THE BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SEBY AKAN BUAT MAMI BANGGA MEMPUNYAI SEBY...

thanks to all of you

1) Thanks to Lord Jesus
 Thank you so much God seby sampai sekarang ngerasain kasih dan anugrah Tuhan yg gaada abis nya buat seby :D seby sayang bgtbgtbgtan sama Tuhan seby ngga ngerti lg kalo gaada Tuhan disisi seby makasih udah selalu ingetin termakasih selalu meberikan kasih walaupun seby suka BEBAL maaf suka bgt buat banyak dosa tp tetep Tuhan sayang sama seby ihhhhhh seby sayang banget sama Tuhan SAYANG BANGET SANGAT TERAMAT SAYANG SAMA TUHAN I love you Lord...You are my savior my way my light and my EVERYTHING :* ({})

2) Mami
Thanks to mami juga yang selalu baik sama seby sayang sama seby selalu ngasih apa yg seby butuhin nyadarin seby waktu seby membutuhkan menuntun seby di jalan yg benar selalu ngajarin seby berbuat nice ke semua orang makasih udah sabar ngerawat seby sampai sekarang maafin seby mami seby sering buat mami nagis,buat mami capek ngadepin seby,maafin seby ma sering ngga mau dengar2an maafin seby banget yahhh :'( seby sayang banget lo sama mami SAYANG BANGET.mami juga jangan sakit2an dong seby sedih banget kalo ngeliat mami sakit seby sayang bgt sama mami jangan sakit pliss seby masih butuh mami...... seby sayang banget sama mami.... mami harus kuat yahhh maafin seby nyusahin mami..... sorry bgt mom seby bakal berusaha untuk ngga ngelakuin hal itu lagi :) seby sayang mami :* ({})

3) Papi
makasih yahh papi juga udah jagain seby udeh care sama seby ngga pernah marahin seby makasih untuk selalu menyayangi seby terimakasih yahh..... maafin seby suka marah2in papi suka pukul2in papi suka ngebantah suka naik suara sama papi suka belaga gila ke papi seby tuh sebenarnya sayang banget sama papi gamau papi pergi2an lagi seby pinggin papi kaya dulu lagi ngga kaya sekarang seby pinggin kaya dulu kita bercanda2 bareng sama mami,bang iyos,ka fika,ka deby ihhhh seby kangen..... plisss papi jangan gini lg dong ihhh pliss papi seby tau papi bisa pasti bisa seby sama yg lain sayang bgt sama papi... <3 :*

4) my sister&brother
makasih juga nih sama kakaku dan abangku yg cantik dan keche nya melebih apapun heheheh :p makasih yahhh udah sering ngalah sama sikap seby yg keras makasih udah banyak kasi2 seby hadiah :o makasih yahhhh untuk sayang sama seby apa adanya walaupun seby paling ngga banget di rumah -_- wkkwkwk makasih yahhh maafin seby batu kalo dikasih tau maafin seby sering ngelunjak sering buat ka deby nangis wkwkw buat ka fika sama bang iyos gedek maaf yahhh -_-v seby sayang sangat sama kalian luph you sist&brother :* ({}) love you so muchhhhhhhh mengila bareng lagi yahhh

5) Juliet
nihh dia sih tewe kecheeeee wkwkwk :D makasih yah ulet ku sayang :* udah sayang sama sebot makasih udah care sama sebot makasih udah sering ngingetin seby yg bener makasih yahhhh et udah jadi temen yg baik bgt buat sebot makasih yahhh makasih banyak udah sering ngajarin seby yg bener :D maafin diriku juliet suka membuatmu lelah suka belaga gila suka aneh2 maafin seby ngga bisa jadi temen  yg terbaik buat ulet :( maafin seby yahhh :( ulet udah kasih banyak hal ke sebot tp sebot ngga pernah ngasih apa2 ke ulet sama sekali :( maafin aku beb.... :( tp yang jelas semoga juliet mendapat pangeran yg sesuai buat ulet yg mencintaimu apa adanya :) masalahnya cepat selesain ULET BISA ULET PASTI BISA SEBOT PERCAYA HAHAH :* seby sayang bgt yah sama kamu ulet ({})

6) IJO,REZA,IRFAN,JODIE
nahh ini dia orang2 belaga gila -_- makasih kalian2 semua udah baik bgt sama seby hahah makasih udah mau nemennin orang kaya seby makasih udah sayang sama seby makasih atasa banyak hal lah pokoknya makasih yeee makasih juga nih buat ijo sama reja teman yg belaga gila bareng makasih buat seneng2nya makasih yee udeh mau nemennin temen kaya gue -_- yg ngga jelas dll makasih yahh dan juga buat irfan dan jodie teman belaga gila dan joging juga wkwkwk :) makasih sering main bareng makasih udh tayang teby makasih buat joging bareng hahah :) aku pada kalian dehhhh maaf yah sering buat kalian kesel,gedek,males maafin aku hanya mausia biasa kaka maap kan aku yahhhhh :D aku sayang loh sama kalian :D <3

7) RUNNI,BELLA,SHALNA
hey tewetwe kecheeee makasih banyak yahh run,bel,na udeh sayang sama gue makasih yah udeh belaga gila bareng makasih yahh untuk senang2nya makasih banyakkkk makasih sgt loohhh maafin chibi yahhh chibi suka buat kalian kesel,gedek dll chibi hanya manusia biasa -_- yg jelas chibi sayang bgt sama kalian makasih udeh suka shareing bareng..... makasih yahh cewe2 kece semoga kalian hidup dalam kebahagian yg melimpahh o:) aku cintahhh kalian cewe2 kecheee <3

8)KIPEN,KETEK,DORI,RICHARD
terimakasih yahhhhh sobat kuu yang ganteng2 makasih buat seru2an nya di kelas makasih buat kekompakan dari sempak!makasih atas segalanya terimakasih atas solidnya kalian makasih atas semuanya makasih maafin w yah sering belaga gila suka ngecengin suka keterlaluan pokoknya maaf yahhh aku tayang kalian lah pokokny kalian selalu di hatikuu.... <3

9)FARHAN&MALIK
makasih yahh cowo2 kechee udah sayang sama tebyyy makasih buat segalanya :D maafin tebu suka ngeselin maafin teby teby hanya manusia biasa maaf kan aku yg jelas seby sayang bgt sama kaliab cowo2 kecheee :* i love you dahhhh :D <3 aku pada kalian yahh jgn pada bandel lo berdua :D

10) ruth
makasih buat semuanya :) maafin gue sering buat lo kesel,gedek,bad mood, gue cuman manusia yg ngga bisa perfect kaya yang lo mau.tapi makasih buat semuanya yg kita lakuin dulu emg itu gabisa kita lakuin lg sekrang hmmm gabanyak ngomong yg jelas gue nyesel aja atas apa yg gue lakuin ke lo dan apa yg lo lakuin ke gue dan juga gue nyesel telah nge buat lo tuh salah satu orang yg berarti buat gue yg jelas gue minta maaf selainnya gue serahin ke elo itu urusan lo dan gue cuman nunggu lo pilih apa.yg jelas makasih yah buat semuanya </3 gue syg sama lo...........

DAMN!

A: Seb die tuh brengsek!ngapain lo masih syg sama dia?
B: .....
A: seb die tuh udeh keterlaluan bgt sama lo!!??
B: ......
A: seb!! die tuh bajingan!!
B: ......
A: seb!!!woii!! buka mata lo apa bagus nya sih dia??!!!
B: ......
A: seb lo tuh cakep ngapain juga capek2 mikirin dia!!!!
B: .....
A: seb banyak orang yg sayang sama lo!!please wake up!!!banyak yg care sama lo tp lo masih aja mertahannin mereka
B: ......
A: seby!!!!!!!woi!!!!!bangun lo di pelet yeee!!!!!jawab gue
B: ......
A : seb ayoklah lah jgn sters gini belom tentu mereka mikirin lo!!!!
B : .....
*10 Menit kemudian
A : hmm... gue gamaksa lo jawab apa ngga gue udeh kasih lo waktu tp lo ngga mau buka mulut lo yaudah.....
B: GUE SAYANG MEREKA..... MAAF GUE TOLOL..... TERLALU MENYAYANGI MEREKA SAMA SEPERTI KELUARGA GUE SENDIRI.....

i'm just lie...

you know all......
i lie to you everyday....
i'm still loving him....
you know why i lie to all of you.....

BECAUSE I REALLY SHY...

shy of loving him......

BECAUSE HE NOT LOVE ME.....

he love other girl......
and you he love my BEST FRIEND......
honestly i'm hurts.......
really hurts......
why i am so loving you.........
tell me why can't i move on......
God, i love you.....
you know how hurts when i see you kiss her?......
like you kiss me........
damn i can't forget that........

SUCK YOU....

FUCK YOU.....

SUCH A JERK....

I HATE THIS FUCKING LOVE

I HATE YOU FUCKER MAN.....

I HATE U but i love you.....